Lindsay Gurka

Summer has slipped through my fingers and here we are in my favorite month of the year, October. It’s where we have a handle on the schedule for the school year, it’s cooling off, the mosquitos and others have gone back to where they belong, and I’m at a much less risk of getting a sunburn. All great things. This also means I have time to myself during the day, imagine that.

I think I might have finally figured out what I’m going to do with these sites that I’ve created for this writing endeavor, which was a big source of stress that sort of held me back from doing anything with anything because I wanted to make sure I knew where everything was going to go. It’s so weird to go from working for someone else who tells you how to do things, to making all the decisions for everything, which I hate because I hate making decisions. I also hate having decisions made for me. So, riddle that one out.

Anyways, this here, it’s my blog, a landing page, a place to work out the nitty gritty nonsense that’s in my head while I try to figure all of this stuff out. And there’s a lot to figure out. Today was a housekeeping sort of day, where I dusted off the digital cobwebs and tried to make sense of the half-finished thoughts I had before summer really took over my life. Fun fact, nothing here made any damn sense and I think most of my brain power was used up in trying to make any from what was here. But, it’s done and I think I have at least an idea of what’s going on.

I’ve got Instagram and X, Twitter, whatever the hell you want to call it, plus this and Patreon. Now, here’s how it’s going to go. Instagram is all for fun, because Instagram is fun. (Which is why I had to hide it in the depths of a folder in my phone because I was having too much fun with it, but that’s beside the point and I have since moved it and lets see how this goes.) Then X is like, you know, there. It’s just there, I’m trying to figure out what that is, but for now, I have an account and I’ll figure that out later. This place is my brain dump out loud into the webiverse where maybe I’ll have a response of some sort while I try to figure this stuff out. Then there’s Patreon, where all my poetry and short stories will be listed for sale.

So, that’s what I’ve come up with today so far. Yay? Nay? Whatever, it’ll have to do for now. As one of my favorite professors said to us, “don’t get it right, get it writ”, so that’s basically what I’m doing now. Going with it and doing something until I figure out what exactly to do. I get so caught up in the planning and the overthinking aspects of everything that I rarely just do the thing I want to do. I can brain-dump a bunch of shit until the cows come home, but until I write a first draft of anything, I have nothing to edit. And if I have nothing to edit, well, I’ve got nothing to publish, and so on and so forth.

This little project, whatever this is, will change with time as I change with time. That’s kind of the cool thing about this. And I’m sure in a few years I’ll look back at this and cringe like crazy, but it’ll make me super proud to see how far I’ve come, so whatever. Here it goes. Crap. I’m scared. Excited. Let’s fucking do the thing.

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Love, Lindsay